It was good to be able to reconnect with many people at one go yesterday. SMR was set as a “reminiscing” session, and it was funny to see how many people saw themselves as world travellers, retired, fulltime homemakers or businessmen/women in the year 2021. I realised though that if I had to imagine myself in 2021, I wouldn’t have been able to come up with an answer! Who knows really, except God?… I only know that I’m in a much better place now, in 2011, than I was in 2001.
If I have any regrets at all over yesterday’s session, it’s that I wasn’t as focused as I’d have liked to be. Something prior triggered reminiscing of a different sort, a much more painful type. Enough to shake me up and release pretty poisonous doubts into my head. Felt my heart grow cold, and a sadness I’ve not experienced in many years came back with an all too familiar twinge.
Well, SMR is done and I’ve just finished the touchups and other editing stuff. Now, time and hopefully energy to turn around and fight the monsters.
Not going to be pretty.
But I hope that in 2021, I’ll be able to look back on this and say it was beautiful…