He is good. He is really good. He is so very good.
Today He smiled upon me with such encouragement, as He affirmed what He has said before.
So I still hold and ponder.
Unlikely reference – Ps 59. It is, after all, an imprecatory psalm. A prayer for deliverance from enemies. But that word stood out. Three times it appeared; three times it made my heart stop for a beat. “Steadfast love”, reads another translation. Indeed. He is steadfast, strong and true. The Great Lover of our souls. Keeper of my heart.
A learning point too. If we look more deeply at Ps 59, we realise that we are sometimes the “enemies” we pray for deliverance from. We are capable of and found to commit violence against ourselves (not just to and from others!). We murder our own spirits by neglect, lack of discernment, and things we harbour and chew on. We ambush ourselves by being in situations we know we shouldn’t. We allow our minds to entertain ‘filth’ in the form of unhealthy inner talk. We keep our pride as a form of false assurance. We tell ourselves lies in a bid to ease pain, avoid confrontations, and cultivate false hopes. By our cares, we go to sleep unsatisfied.
But He is our stronghold, and in His lovingkindness He will meet us. He is our refuge, when we realise our violence and cry in shame. He is our strength, when we turn around and seek a way out into His light.