Lent (III) – Despite

So many thoughts for one morning. No, just the first hour of one morning.

It is lovely, this intimacy.

One of my favourite questions, reprised:

But who do you say I am?

But Lord, where do I start???

It is not possible to describe You.

… but there is one word that I’m gripped by today: Despite.

You are a God of Despite.

There are too many things I think, feel, see, know where it would be easy to say, “That is so.”

Often, You come, and whisper, “But…”. For some things, I’m now able to say, “I see. My bad, sorry. You’re good!”. There are still things where a story of greater faith waits to be told.

“Sorry Lord, I still can’t believe. Will You help me please?”

There are other times when You gently say, “Perhaps it is so.” And I’d sadly ask You, “Then how? :(” Without missing a beat, You reply, “Will you let go?”

“I will. I will to will Your will. But it’s going to feel awful. I won’t make it on my own. Will You help me please?”


For He Himself knows our frame;
He is mindful that we are but dust.
As for man, his days are like grass;
As a flower of the field, so he flourishes.
When the wind has passed over it, it is no more,
And its place acknowledges it no longer.
But the lovingkindness of the LORD is
from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear Him,

And His righteousness to children’s children,
To those who keep His covenant
And remember HIs precepts to do them.
– Ps 103:14-18


“What a comfort to know that we have a great Physician who is both able and willing to heal us! His cures are very speedy – there is life in a look at Him; His cures are radical – He strikes at the center of the disease; and therefore His cures are sure and certain – He never fails, and the disease never returns. There is no relapse where Christ heals, no fear that His patients should be merely patched up for a season. He makes new men of them: He also gives them a new heart, and He puts a right spirit within them. He is well skilled in all diseases.

Physicians generally have some specialty. Although they may know a little about almost all our pains and ills, there is usually one disease that they have studied above all others; but Jesus Christ is thoroughly acquainted with the whole of human nature. He is as much at home with one sinner as with another, and never yet did He meet with a case that was difficult for Him. He has had extraordinary complications of strange diseases to deal with, but He knows how to treat the patient. The medicine He gives is the only true potion, healing in every instance.

Whatever our spiritual malady may be, we should request at once of the divine Physician. There is no brokenness of heart that Jesus cannot bind up. We trust Him, and sin dies; we love Him, and grace lives; we wait for Him, and grace is strengthened; we see Him as He is, and grace is perfected forever.” – Spurgeon


About lilac butterfly

Live. Love. Learn. Laugh. Write. Draw. Colour. Blend. Play. Dream. Cry. Reflect. Pray. Sing. Worship. Bake. Cook. Rest. Give thanks.

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