It was a small slice of infinity (a phrase I learnt from RZIM, a lovely phrase).
A water feature, separated only by glass from the maelstrom outside.
The water fell, quite oblivious and yet joyously accepting of the path it danced through.
Entertained some thoughts. In the midst of a day that felt like it was going nowhere, yet was. … I actually felt like I was going nowhere too. Maybe even regressing? The apparent realities are acute. The tangible tradeoffs not small. The risks, high. Yet, deep down I know otherwise about the nowhere-ness.
Some emails that came in reminded me of delightful truths. Emails about Purpose & focus. About “the little things” and a top leader who was Christ-like and left a legacy of care. About Ecclesiastical futility. The eyes of my heart turned away from the questions I’d been asking, and back onto the One who is my Answer.
But as they say, courage isn’t the absence of fear. The boldness I pray often for God to grant me, isn’t borne of knowing all will be well and smooth, or what lies ahead. None of us can ever know that. Only God sees all, and knows the end from the beginning. My certainty is, that God is always and thoroughly good.
And it felt like He was right there, listening to the inner conversation; the book I’d brought out with me flipped back to a page I’d read in July last year:
“The man who has God for his treasure has all things in One. Many ordinary treasures may be denied him, or if he is allowed to have them, the enjoyment of them will be so tempered that they will never be necessary to his happiness. Or if he must see them go, one after one, he will scarcely feel a sense of loss, for having the Source of all things he has in One all satisfaction, all pleasure, all delight. Whatever he may lose he has actually lost nothing, for he now has it all in One, and he has it purely, legitimately and forever.” – A. W. Tozer, The Pursuit of God
And again, today there have been reminders.
I Will Listen (Twila Paris)
I’ve Decided (Galvin Sng)