A believing life (17): Reunion

Amazing Grace 3 Victoria

The last 3 weeks have been a colourful mix of tensions, resolved dangers, new issues, disappointments, immense safety, purging, surprises, great care, incredible help, peace, new discoveries, quiet moments, exhausting stretches, ambiguous steps, ridiculous situations, funny times, poignant memories, celebrations, near & familiar places, far & new spaces, and friends old and new.

I’ve spent more time with family and friends in the last 3 weeks than I have in the 8 months preceding them. It says a lot about how I walked the earlier part of the year – and how much better the later part is turning out to be. I am extremely glad to be in this part of the year; and very relieved that medically, things have been less noisy. Spending time with people dear to me, and spending time on my own without any work involved, has reminded me of many things that co-exist in our crazy worlds:

births & deaths
sickness & health
betrayal & trust
friendship & enmity
wisdom & foolishness
care & callousness
hubris & true humility
excesses & simplicity
danger & safety
seen-ness & hiddenness
gratitude & resentment
encouragement & harsh words
poverty & lavishness
being-let-down & being-utterly-surprised
senseless noise & meaningful quiet
hard labour & lying fallow
pure beauty & ugly insanity
robbing & blessing
filling up & emptying out
travelling & stopping
remembering & forgetting
seeking & running away
accepting & refusing…

These co-existent things cause us so much grief. We are walking contradictions (it’s just human to be so, they say). Our contradictions within and without play a big role in separating us – from God, from ourselves, and from one another. Sad.   They also often create the places of our battles. Battles with God, with ourselves, and with one another. Fierce.

Taken one battle at a time, I admit that I find it hard to tell if we (I) are ‘winning’ or ‘losing’. Too much drama – sometimes defeats, sometimes triumphs. Are we (I) truly becoming better each time? Am I becoming better at choosing God, each time?

By God’s grace, I get reminders in various forms, that while the story is lived one battle at a time, the ending stays the same.

The ending is victory, wholeness, rest… and reunion.

We will be reunited – with God, with ourselves, and with one another. Reunited, and so, truly human.

 

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Live. Love. Learn. Laugh. Write. Draw. Colour. Blend. Play. Dream. Cry. Reflect. Pray. Sing. Worship. Bake. Cook. Rest. Give thanks.

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