Was there and yet not.
The process itself was a blessing. I’ve not viewed the journey through a Listening lens yet, and this proved a good time to do so.
Saw how the pieces fell in place just when they needed to. Even up till the night before. Like this:
“When we are anxious we are inclined to over prepare. We wonder what to say when we are attacked, how to respond when we are being interrogated, and what defense to put up when we are accused. It is precisely this turmoil that makes us lose our self-confidence and creates in us a debilitating self-consciousness.
Jesus tells us not to prepare at all and to trust that he will give us the words and wisdom we need. What is important is not that we have a little speech ready but that we remain deeply anchored in the love of Jesus, secure about who we are in this world and why we are here. With our hearts connected to the heart of Jesus, we will always know what to say when the time to speak comes.” – Henri Nouwen